Wednesday, March 18, 2015

....and that Enigma happened to me !!!

Love was when…..

When I fall in love, at the same time, all the definitions of love had no significance for me, why? Because then I understood, that every love is different and everyone’s love is different and the experience or the feelings are totally not match with each other’s …
So, in short … for me (only for my feelings), love was when, I first came to know about your actual being , and knowing the facts that you are the only one matching with my expectations , so it fails the theory of first sight love for me, but I also want to confess that yes it was the love at first sight without seeing each other, but seeing the posts online :P
The story will come in next post, but for now I am trying to explore, when I realized that I am also on the boat of pinkish dreams .
Love was when … I first saw your creative posts, your efforts for the colorful culture of Rajasthan, and that was the first quality I always wanted in my life partner. From there to now, that is the only common thing between us, and which we love the most. J
Love was when … we first saw each other and everything got blanked, we even forget where we are and what we are doing, the mind refused to work for a while, love was when I said “we are made for each other” and your reply made me think, that I am the perfect girl for you.
Love was when, you said that you love the way I was, not at all worrying about what I was wearing, how I was behaving, and as I know I was the thinnest girl and even looking like a patient of rehabilitation center, but you loved me not for my appearance but for my inner souls goodness.
Love was when, we were at the Jalmahal one evening, the wind blowing of and you were watching me ,without saying anything you said a lot, and the final parody ...was the three words “ you are beautiful” the way of saying that, made me think that I am the most beautiful girl in the world.
Love was when… we were at EP, watching the full moon, playing hide and seek with clouds, suddenly it was rain all over, we got wet but, we were still sitting there and watching the full moon, and each other.
Love was when… we were at Central park looking for a shed or something because it was a high rain and water everywhere, but haven’t found one, and again enjoyed the rain for next 6 hours, after that your efforts for a cup of tea for me, made me feel that I am so special for you.
Love was when… sitting somewhere and talking, at that moment, everything got faded away all the time, only you and me, nothing else we were able to see. We never said “I love you” to each other but, felt it on every single second spent with each other.
 So, it is the short note about how and when I felt, that I am falling in love with someone special.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The most enigmatic divine thing.

First sight ……. loves….

When someone meet with a person and fall in love, at first sight.
But do you ever thought that all first sight love happens  only when the person is like an angel, I mean most beautiful.

Nobody fall in love with an ugly or some less attractive person, in every story one thing is common ,the person is so attractive and the other one felt that he/she has to develop some feelings in the heart of the angel.

Hahaha!!! So do you have a love at first sight story??? If yes then your partner might be very attractive.

But I am not agree with the term love at first sight. I think it happens in school time only, when a very attractive new boy or girl came into the class and every eyes look at him/her, that time everybody(most of all)fall in love with the pretty face. That is only the attraction of someone’s personality.

I believe in love which can happen after knowing each-other, and when we met with the qualities which the person having and it attracts us, we are just fall in love with the person because she/he has the qualities which we want in our partner and its came to know after a long time we spent with the one.

One of my good friends gave me his opinions on it-“It’s a color of the life, it depends on the situations. May be it happens at first sight but I also don’t think so, because love happens when we felt that the person has those qualities which we are expecting from our special one. At first sight, it can not possible to know such qualities.”


I have a story related with the first sight love. When I was in school, that was my first day of high school, I met with a girl who was my classmate, she was the first one who talked with me and after some time became my best friend.
So the story began on the first day end, when she came to me and said “Do you know I am falling in love with somebody…”

I surprised…many questions came into my mind “What??? What are you talking about??? Are you mad??? When it happened???”

I was just shocked when she replied “Do you remember sir asked a funny question and everybody laughed when one boy answered???”

“Yes. I remember that…so???”

“So…when I turned back and saw him, he was looked like an angel with shy smiling face, that time I just felt that I am falling in love with him.”

“I can’t believe, what crap things you are talking, it can not happens at first sight. I think you have to stop these stupid things right now”

But she just smiled and many sparkles came into her dreamy eyes.

The time flied away with wings. But everyday I saw the sparking eyes, when she looked at him.

One day I asked her “When you are going to tell him that you are in love with him???”

Her reply shocked me again “Never…”

I asked with lots of questions in my eyes “Why??? If you love him like this madness, then why you are not go and let him know about it???”

She replied with a sad smile “Because…he love someone else” and some sparkles came out from her eyes, getting the face of tears.

The school time wasn't long. She never told him about her love.

After many years, one day I met her at the street of our town, and the first question came into my mind was, “Hey!!! What happened with your first love???”

“He got his first love…”

“What do you mean??? Please clear, I am curious about it…”

“He is married now…with the girl he loves a lot…”

“Did you ever acknowledged him about your love???”

“No…I haven’t…” She replied slowly.

“Why??? And what about your true love???”

“I still love him… that’s why I can’t marry with another boy…”

I was speechless, and she turned back and I know she had tears in her big and sparking eyes….



Wednesday, January 13, 2010

THE ENIGMATIC ANGLES OF LOVE

Love is like an enigma-II

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."
- Woody Allen

Wawwww….What a definition of love… Can u understand it???

Well but I can’t…I can’t understand anything related with love…

I can’t understand the person who loves me a lot…when he say” I want to be with u always.” And just a thought comes in my mind…Why he is not feeling bored to be with me??? When many peoples do…

“Jaagu me sari-sari raat... teri yaad me…kisko sunau fariyaad… teri yaad me…janu na tere siva koi baat…teri yaad me…”-Kailash khair

When he says” I can’t sleep because of you…when I close my eyes… you come in my mind…& the night goes with your yaad…” And that time I just don’t have words…I only have a question…Why he can’t sleep??? When I can…

The things behind this are the enigmatic angles of love. I want to define them as I felt.

There are mainly three enigmatic angles.

1- The person you love a lot, don’t love you that much- because he/she cant feel your love in the way you can feel. He/she just surprised why you love her/him that much.

2- The person you love a lot ,don’t love you- most of people whom I talked about love, said that I love someone a lot but he/she don’t love me. Why he/she can’t feel that I really love him/her.

3- The last and very admirable angle is, the person you love a lot, loves you more then you. This is really seems like a miracle. Two persons love each other and want to spend their life in the heart of each other. They also were having misunderstandings, problems, ego, attitude…etc. But still they love each other a lot. When a lover fights, second forgive .They physically don’t want anything from his/her lover, but they just want to be with him/her every time.

So, I have problem with the third angle. I still can’t understand how people do love like this??? That much love comes from where??? I know he loves me a lot, then why I can’t understand his love. Why I m not feeling anything when I know that he loves me.

I think there must be some problem. There is one another angle of love remaining, that is you love the person, but you can’t show him/her. You know the way to express your love but you don’t want to do that, because you are afraid of something. You don’t want to indulge in those feelings. In this way, you just ignored the person. And this is obvious that the person feels that you don’t love him. When you know the side effects of love, you just want to beware of this.

Continued………………J

Love is like an enigma


You know what is love?? Actually I also don’t know…:P
So,to see what love is? I searched it on Google…and you know... I found 378,000,000 of pages which defined the love…and oh my GOD...I really surprised …love cant b defined in words... so don’t worry, I will not define love here..:D

But I just want to know... what exactly is love?? Do you know that?? So let us find out…J

When I thought about love first time, I was only 16 year old... That time I got the word love in my book [as I still remember in this way] and from that time to now... I m trying to find out the true meaning of love... but still I m not able to know…:P

But I found a person who really knows about love…I asked him “what is love??”
And he said What is love? - Love is a feeling, affection, an attraction, and accepting or liking someone without any condition as he or she is. Love is the name of only giving not anything expectation from your love. I love someone…without knowing she love me or not…



Continued ……….............:)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

wo raat bhi ek enigma si thi...

ajj chand bahut khubsurat tha
mene khidaki ke parde hata diye the
puri raat chandani mere kamare me barasati rahi
puri raat me sochati rahi
jaane wo konse khyal the jo aate rahe
me so hi nahi payi thi
mene raat bhar chand ko dekha
aaj jaisi khubsurat raat jaane fir kab aayegi
me chandani me beth kar anjaane khyalo me khoi raat bita dungi
kuch der pahale hi
chand chala gaya chupake se
bina kuch bole...bina alvida kahe...
jab mene bahar dekha ..wahan to ab bhi raat thi..andhera tha
ab me bhi jaa rahi hun...
apne sapno ke shahar
bina kuch bole..bina alvida kahe...

ab bhi tera intezar hai mujhe....

tere hone se hi to me thi...
tere na hone se me kahan thi..

tere khawabon me hi to me thi...
tere jaane ke baad ,neend kahan thi...

tere pyar me hi to ,me khush thi...
tere jaane ke baad khushi kahan thi...

ab bhi tera intezar hai mujhe....

Something..enigmatic

kyo mera dil shad nahi hai...
kyo khamosh raha karti hun...

chodo meri ramkahani...
me jaisi bhi hun ,achi hun...

-faiz ahamad faiz

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